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| "A Regency Lady's Faery Bower" by Amelia Jane Murray (1800-1896) |
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| "A Regency Lady's Faery Bower" by Amelia Jane Murray (1800-1896) |
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| "A Regency Lady's Faery Bower" by Amelia Jane Murray (1800-1896) |
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| "A Regency Lady's Faery Bower" by Amelia Jane Murray (1800-1896) |
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| "A Regency Lady's Faery Bower" by Amelia Jane Murray (1800-1896) |
| "A Regency Lady's Faery Bower" by Amelia Jane Murray (1800-1896) |
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| "A Regency Lady's Faery Bower" by Amelia Jane Murray (1800-1896) |
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| "A Regency Lady's Faery Bower" by Amelia Jane Murray (1800-1896) |
When I was sixteen my parents went to England and they brought me back this book: "A Regency Lady's Faery Bower" by Amelia Jane Murray (1800-1896).
I loved butterflies, dragonflies, fairies, angels anything with wings. I scoured the book for a beautiful fairy name for my first daughter.
I always wanted to be a Mom and I wasn't pregnant yet but I was going to be ready when the time came.
The time came sooner rather than later and by the time I was nineteen I was having a baby!
I didn't plan it. I was NOT ready. I was terrified and insecure but I wouldn't have changed it.
I WAS HAVING THIS LITTLE BABY!
I was young and idealistic and I had fantasies that life would go on as before but in between I would pick up my beautiful sweet baby and love her or him.
I CRIED A LOT! I didn't know how MUCH my life was changing because I had no life experience to understand the consequences; I just knew that it was scary.
It just seemed so final and I wasn't sure about anything.
Now that it is twenty years later I can't believe I made it!
If my daughter were following in my footsteps in three months she would be having a baby.
She would be much more capable than I was but I still think it would be such a challenge. I can't believe I did such a good job and that we have both come so far.
I am so so blessed with her not just for our relationship that brings me a lot of joy and comfort but because I know she can come to me and we genuinely like each other not just love each other like families have to do but actually like each other.
So I am asking you to forgive me just a little rambling about how wonderful my daughter is because it a big moment for us...
When she was in Grade 7 one of her teachers sent me a postcard that said: "Amelia is just a lovely person to have in class and she spreads her joy everywhere she goes" I still have that today I was so touched.
This postcard sums up the past twenty years.I love you Amelia! Oh and she never got a fairy name she got the name of the painter instead!
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